Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Learning to be J. Marguerite
I used to spend so much time trying to live up to what others thought of me, or thought I should be. I lived my life worrying about how people would perceive me. I don't deny that I am different. I like to laugh, and make others laugh. I like to joke around and sing. That can sometimes be too much for others. They may think I am too old to be so jovial. I am at the point where I am just like "SCREW YOU!" My mama and daddy love me just the way I am! LOL. God made me this way, so why try to fight it? Would you rather I sit around and tell you the most depressing stories of my life? NO! I'm going to tell you how much fun I had the other night at karaoke with AMAZING friends. Or how, just the other week, my big sister came to spend her birthday WITH ME! Or how excited I am for the changes that are coming into my family's lives this year.
I am too blessed to be stressed or depressed. I am going to live my life the way I see fit! The day my mama told me to do what makes ME happy, it changed me. I began to see things differently. I morphed into a different WOMAN. People continuously ask me, who is J. Marguerite? She's me. She's a better me. I am named after an AMAZING woman, my grandma, and I am thankful for that. I want to live up to that name, but in my own way.
I'm living the life that I want to live. This is me. This is what I want to do. This is how I want to live.
Living in Maryland has taught me so much. Everyone here is DIFFERENT. They can be rude and mouthy, and I've developed and even tougher skin. It has also taught me that living in a place where there is no family nearby, SUCKS! I am very close to my family, and not being around them is TERRIBLE. I can live on my own, but not this far away from them. It's too hard.
All in all, this has been a great experience, but I can't wait to go home! I never thought, in my right mind, that I would utter the words, I'm moving back to Dayton, but I am! I miss my friends and family. I've made some AMAZING friends here, friends I know that will be in my life forever. I'm going to miss them greatly, but...it's time to get back home!